Deesha Phillaw in Full Grown People
No, you couldn’t be at Kimbilio 2015, but you can read the piece that Deesha shared at the Fellow’s reading:
HOW CAN YOU BE MAD AT SOMEONE WHO’S DYING OF CANCER
How can you be mad at someone who’s dying of cancer? It helps if you don’t yet know she’s dying, if you think the doctors are just trying one more thing. It helps if she is your mother and if she’s just driven you crazy your whole life, but insists on a kind of love that leaves you unable to breathe and sick to your stomach from her phone calls or from the mere thought of her visiting you or you visiting her. It helps if she is obsessed with you, her only child, because she believes God sent you to her teenage self to love her since no one else did. It helps if she pours her whole life into you, but you never asked her to, and you would have rather she not, just so you could fucking breathe and dress conservatively and keep the pasta separate from the sauce and breastfeed your baby and buy organic, without her judging you from the valley of her insecurities.
Read the rest of the story here: http://fullgrownpeople.com/2015/02/17/dying-cancer/
